Thursday, 14 March 2013

My train ride - Part 17


Salam…hi all…

Its Friday March 15th, 2013. Friday – Day of All Days.

I’m back on the train today. It has been awhile. Most of my meetings recently require me to drive to the destination. There are no train services to that area…sigh…parking was a nightmare!

Time flies….it’s already the 3rd month of year 2013 and while sitting all the way back at the very last coach of the train, I’m thinking back; what have I achieve so far? Hmmmm…not much I guess…sigh..

Doing a consulting job is not easy after all. Some clients are taking their own sweet time to pay the bills. Some just expect me to “beg”…..life…

Sitting opposite of me, there sits a mother with 3 kids. The lady looks calm and collected handling the 3 very hyper kids. The ages of her kids are probably between 3 – 9 years old. A handful to handle alone! I was kind of amazed to watch her skills of handling these hyper kids. It’s definitely not an easy task! She knows I was watching and she looks at me and said, “Half of my energy gone!” and she smile. And I said, “I’m sure you are doing a better job than anyone else. I don’t think I have the skills to handle 3 at the same time and alone! No way can I do it”. She looks at me again and said, “Yes it’s not easy. And I’m the mother and the ‘father’ to these 3 heroes. I’m a single mother”. At this point; I can see the sadness on her face and I replied; “Oh…I’m so sorry to hear that”. “Well…it’s my stop. It was a pleasure talking to you and good luck”. “Pleasure was mine. Thank you” she replied with a smile.

It’s sad to see 3 very young kids growing up in a broken home. At the very young age that needs the attention from a father. But I guess things happen for a reason that only the almighty knows the truth. Unfortunately, between 2 grown adults fighting; their kids are the victim of circumstances.

This reminds me of a conversation with my dear friend few weeks ago. She lives in Kedah (up north of Malaysia) now. We were talking about the stories that I uploaded on my blog. And when we talked about one of my posting on polygamy; she said “I commented because I know how it feels like to live in a broken home”. I asked, “Oh really? What actually happen?” “Well, after 15 years of marriage with 5 kids, my father decided to walk away.” she replied with a sad voice.

“Oh dear…I’m so sorry. It must have been tough huh?” I’m trying to push her to tell me more…

Here’s the story; sadly after my mum married my dad, he became a different person. A womaniser! There were times that my mum bump into my dad with a different woman in his arms. He left us and my mum was the one that have to struggle to make ends meet. During the 80’s, my mum was a columnist with a local newspaper. She writes on a daily basis and she also took up the role as an editor. These 2 jobs require long hours at the office. We (my eldest sisters and my brothers) had to lead our own life at home without her. We were pushed to a corner. We need to learn to survive on our own. Do our own things like laundry, feed ourselves etc. Mum had to work. And she was not earning that much at that time. Sadly, being a single mother; coming back from the office at odd hours becomes a topic/gossip amongst the neighbours. For some reason; being a single mother those days the society looks down on you. Weird but true.

My mum is a fighter. She works hard day and night to feed us, ensure that all of her kids receive good education. And for many years we struggled. Debts were just countless! With family members, groceries store, you name it!

But my mum always said; “have faith, believe in the Almighty. Insyallah ‘he’ will help us”.

With the hardship that she had to go through, she managed to send 2 of my sisters and my brother to study abroad. And as for my other brother and me, we further our studies at a local University.

“Your mum is a columnist? Which newspaper?” I asked. “Berita Harian and Berita Minggu. She is better known as “Cik Sri Siantan”.

“What?!” I know this writer! I've read her writing many years ago! What a small world”…I was really in shock. I’m talking to the daughter of “Cik Sri Siantan”. I didn’t know all this while.

“From your stories; your mum is one hell of a very determine person. A very strong character indeed. I mean; to survive with 5 kids without the support from a husband was one hell of an achievement” I was in awe…

We were on the phone for almost 30 minutes. And it was a pleasure to had the opportunity to speak to the daughter of a great writer.

There are 2 issues here; firstly it is without doubt that in a broken home not only the wife will suffer but the kids will suffer the most…I think. They were given no choice but to lead their life’s without a father figure at a very young age. Secondly, I still failed to understand on why the society is looking down on single mothers. Some even said that “if she’s a single mother, it’s a lot easier for men to get under her ‘skirt’. That’s how low the mentality of some men…sad…

Moral of the story; Being a parent is a tough job; what more being a single parent!

To Cik Sri Siantan; if you are reading this…it was an honour to get to know you thru your daughter. Your writing was a masterpiece. How I wish you are still writing….

And to all single mothers out there; I salute you!

Have a good day peeps!

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